5. Self-mutilating behavior

Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior. (DSM-5)

Feel

I can‘t,

I can‘t,

I can‘t,

I ...

I have to.

I can‘t take it. I have to do it. I‘m so worthless. Piece of shit. Just die. Make it end. You deserve punishment.

The wall, the wall, the wall. Smash my head. Do I bleed? Smash more. The pain. Can you already stop? Smash it. Pain.

Pain.

Pain.

Pain.

Calm.

Much calmer now. Breath. Can you feel the pain? Am I bleeding? Oh, blood. Get a towel. Wash it off. You‘ll be fine. Does it hurt? It does. Ok. I‘m fine, better now.